Need some loving...

Okay... 1 year since i posted anything, not that i dint have any thoughts in my mind. You see thats not possible, my brain is always buzzing with activity, always thinking, always struggling with itself, sometimes its memories that bring a smile while other times its the scary yet exciting anticipation of the future, mostly i just rant about the present. The truth is my thoughts are always there to keep me company. I have no qualms embarking on that long journey, without an i-pod or taking a day off to roam about aimlessly, not meet new people just for the sake of not being alone or get bored because there is nothing on the television. In fact i soundly believe that if one cannot bear his/her own company then he/she shouldn't be cruel enough to inflict it upon others. But, I digress...

Coming back to reason for not writing for so long... you see i am a confident, sweet girl with big dreams and a big mouth but then there are times i wonder, why type out my precious feelings and send them out into this abyss of information, why bother posting anything at all, its like sending out a thought floating into nothingness, or rather its the over-abundance of knowledge on the net that enhances the nothingness of my effort. No one reads, no one comments, no one is impressed, whats so special? And what is it that i write about anyways...

But today as i went through one of my older posts i got the answer...

Of course no one cares and no one will till i become someone either extremely famous, filthy rich or banefully stupid or embarrass myself to the point of no return... no one EXCEPT my handful of friends, some of whom i love dearly but have lost touch with and this an open letter to all of them and my cyber stalkers, if i have got any.

Its been an year of no writing and whoa what an year it has been. Below are the updates:

My new year began in India with my family, at my family house and then on the new years night i found myself in the loving company of my sweetest college friends, we stayed awake all night cracking PJs and laughing hysterically.

Made a trip to Canada to meet the secret love of my life(some day i'll spill the beans to the paparazzi about it but not now).

Finally finished my Master's, why, i am still wondering, defended my thesis and passed.

Spent my summer in China and got enthralled by the culture, the people and the street food. In fact i almost attained Nirvana, in one of the monasteries in Hangzhou. My words will never be able to do justice to what i saw, felt and experienced so i wont even attempt. But if there was a place outside me, that i ever felt the presence of a greater power in, a single entity to whom i owed my complete love and submissiveness, who could have been my creator, then i am sure i would have met that force in here. On the top of that hill, in the midst of nature, were the air was so pure with incense, sunlight and chants of holy hymns that for once i felt like giving up my world and don a maroon cloak for the rest of my life.

Too poetic,... lets come back to the States and continue with the annual report.

Once back, i went to San Diego, where i spent a very broke, lazy yet very pleasant autumn baking and reading the great book 'Return to the little Kingdom' made me feel so humble and so inspired, something similar to that monastery experience... (i don't believe i just confessed that online).

Searched for a job and got one. Gave a few Google interviews, life changing experiences again, ironically my last post was criticizing Buzz yet the interview process and the thought put into it tells me it must be a great company, and though i blew it up i will try again someday, or better still i might try pitching my own company against it someday... ;) if you cant join them, oppose them. :P

So 2010 was an year of travel, where i re-experienced 'vasudev kutumbakam', the philosophy i had mention in my 1st post in 2008, the philosophy of universal love and goodness, made a few friends in the land of the orient and in the wild wild west. But by the end, i discovered something more precious. Friendship. I was going to start a new life, at a new city, in a new job, with new people but then as always there was past to be cherished, old bonds to be reforged and memories to be wrapped in the beautiful satin of love. I spent the last few days of 2010 bidding adieu to some of my fine friends at Bower, in the Embodied Intelligence lab and at East Lansing. And realized that no matter how much i fought/resented/hated/ranted in 2010 it was always love and friendship at the bottom of it all that kept me going. It was a tough year and yes i did accomplish a few things, but as another chapter in my life comes to an end i would like to thank all my friends and lovers for making it all so much easier for me and for suffering me, loving me, confiding in me, listening to me and for making me what i am today, yours truly that is.

For pics from my Shanghai, Hangzhou trip follow link: From the Orient